First day in my new world

Last night carried into the early morning.....I held my Bunny and cried and cried and cried until the tissues were used up, my chest was sore from gasping, and my eyes felt raw....even then I did not want to go to bed...but I had to go upstairs to get another box of tissue, and I had fur growing on my teeth. Bed was just down the hall and it called me at 4am.

I woke at 8 and laid in bed.  Sooty realised I was awake and wanted to be petted....usually she gets a quick tickle under the chin but today i was in no hurry to face the day.

I called the Animal Hospital to make arrangements for Stus remains.  As much as I adored Stu I have no desire to have his ashes, so everything was straightforward....but tearful.  Dr Munn and his staff have been taking care of Stu since I adopted him and (rightfully) considered his advanced years in a small way a testament to their care.  Dr .Munn has been ill this week but the girls came out to offer their condolences and to say goodbye to Stu. 

I carried on my day wearing dark glasses, and running errands.  When i found myself feeling a bit peckish I thought to head to St. Lawerence Market , because while I was there I could check the vegetable vendors for carrot tops for Stu...then remembered I didn't have to get carrot tops anymore....weird. Then again I had to drive by the Chinese Grocery store and I thought to pop in and get some of that really good BokChoy that Stu really likes....again I realized that I didn't have to get BokChoy anymore.  I need to paint my hall (from the mess the electrician has made replacing the wiring) so I spent a good part of the afternoon running from Rona to Lowes to Home Depot trying to match the existing paint color.....I thought to myself "I gotta get home and give Stus his meds". On the way home I realized that I had forgone breakfast and stopped for an all day Breakfast, spilled coffee on my shorts, duh, came home and immediately put them in a tub to soak.....with my Iphone still in the pocket....arrrrrrhhhh. My pictures of STU are on that phone.  Tomorrow I will see if the "genius"   can fix the phone....
walk past the Lazyboy, bend to seek my bunny and give him a snuggle...then remember that he is not there.
Because today was a beautiful sunny day I opted to tend to the flower beds instead of painting...hummm a dandelion, gotta keep that for Stu....not.  I have this big container that I planted parsley, for Stu....and a million times I walk by that Lazyboy and want to stop give Stu a little snuggle and kiss.
The world that I live in today is different in a hundred little ways from the world I lived in with a bunny in my life.....
Its gonna take some getting used to.